I cant believe I'm back here, how did this happen? the anxiety, the doubt, the questioning, the complication. Feeling betrayed, feeling hurt and feeling how my heart crumbles in little pieces. The confusion and the not knowing what to do next, or what is it that I want. Torn between what the right thing to do is, and what your heart tries to pushes you to do like a wheel spinning with a G4 force.

Back to not trusting and no believing. Back to facing loneliness, back to feeling a void.

I have this need inside to cry out loud but I'm completely dry, too many tears have been shed on too many lonely nights.

Love can makes us smile, hope for a bright future, motivate us to be better and to give the best we can. But when love goes wrong, it brings you down many feet under, where is dark and the space feels so small that once can barely breath. Darkness surrounds you even though the light is right in front of you, taking for granted the rest of the wonderful and positive things that are going on.

I know this road, been here many times, i know it will get better, I just don't think I have the energy and strength to walk that path, because it hurts.

What do I do with this pain I feel inside, how do i easy it?......